I've lived Cancer.

I've seen scars, in hospitals when I was walking down all the way to your room everyday. 

I've heard pain, when you asked when is this ending? Am I going to suffer like that forever? 

I've felt God, that moment when I was bending to kiss you on your cheek, and you breathed your last breath. It was also my last kiss. 

I've missed your presence, that moment I went back home after the funeral to find your empty bed. I was sitting right there beside you, 5 seconds away. But what is 5 seconds? 

I've felt strength, like never before, choosing to go through this pain day by day with someone you love is not an easy decision. 

I've counted days, a year passed, but the pain is still there. Nothing changed. But what is a year without you? 

I've understood the word "betrayal", when someone promised me the world just to disappear afterward. 

I've felt your presence, reminding me of how my good heart is one of my biggest flaws. 

I've breathed fresh air, that morning when I woke up with a smile on my face because I knew exactly what I deserve.

I've sneezed all the bad memories out of my system, they evaporated right in front of me, like a flame.

I've burnt all my words, even though I never regret anything, but some words must end up in the trash. I've seen you looking down at me with a proud smile on your face. 

I've felt love, I was scared and I kept talking to you and wishing you were here, I imagined you giving me the advice you used to always give me, The things you fear the most are the chances you don't want to miss. 

I've imagined my future, what I did in the past and how the little things makes me the happiest in my present. 

I've seen happiness, when you visited me in my dreams telling me that I'll do just great. 

Most of all, I've felt Peace, because I had a mother like you.