December clouds.

To that night you said I'm not like any of those you met before. 

To that moment I believed you. 

To that handshake we had, it felt more like disconnecting. 

To that map we lost a long the way, and those words we didn't say.

To that night in the city where the lights didn't guide our souls to meet. 

To your promises that you didn't keep. 

I wasn't surprised. Did I tell you since when I stopped believing every word that comes out of your mouth? 

Did I tell you how I stopped expecting anything from anyone?

To that paycheck you handled me to pay, I felt like I'm paying you goodbyes. 

To that moment I fell asleep in your car, I was so scared of how irresponsible you are that I had my eyes half open to watch the road. 

To that flower that was promised but never delivered. 

To that goodbye you wanted to have. 

And that night I walked away. 

To that friend that made my day by celebrating with my favorite cake. 

That cake you wanted to have with me. 

To those nights I wondered how many do I have to lose in order to keep myself. 

To those nights I thought about your empty words. 

To that city where everything is happening. 

And everyone is having the time of their lives.

To that flight I missed to go back home.

To those that helped me through that day.

To that stranger that took me out for a walk. 

It's all I ever wanted, a walk and an ear. In a city where no one is clear. 

To that city where everything is overrated, those skyscrapers that hold more secrets than souls. 

To those souls that left a memory in my heart, just by passing by and smiling.

To that trip, that changed how I see myself. 

To myself.. I'm so proud of you. 

Wherever you are, whatever you're doing, our hearts are still connected, I still remember that Kiss on your cheek in my dream, it felt so real, I remember your hand going through my hair, I still remember my voice, my tears, I was so afraid to let you go, I told you I love you so much more than I'll ever love someone or love myself. I believe that dreams are a substitute for phone calls from heaven. Today, I woke up far away from home but it felt like home just because I was hugging you all night long. Till we meet again Mum .. 

Human beings are like doors, some of them are open, some others are closed. Some of them take you to good places in life, some others take you somewhere different. Some are easy to open, some others never open no matter how much you try. There's a new opportunity behind every closed door, behind every person you meet. You have to be wise and choose which door to carefully open, which person you intend to trust. Not all doors will take you somewhere good. Not all people will keep their promises. 

And in the end, you need to always know when it's time to leave and close the door behind you. Not everyone deserve your presence. 

The first people to walk away from your life are the ones that were mad because you didn't trust them enough to open up. 

Once you trust them, they promise you that they will never leave you, so you open up and they leave. End of story. Or shall I say, Game over. 

In a world where Social media has taken over, no one is ever too busy to check their phone. We are living in a place where your phone is the only thing that's keeping you busy, cut the excuses, it's all a matter of priorities. 

She was warming up with a cup of hot chocolate when she remembered that around this time last year, she said "never". She never asked you to look her way. 

She's not harsh, She's strong. She has learned her lessons the hard way. 

She remembers those she left behind, they follow her like a shadow wherever She goes.

Don't you see how hard it is? 

She give chances. She does. 

But she also leaves when she has no other choice. 

Now you come knocking on her door for the third time, looking for that face you love, but she's not there. 

She chose not to be there. And that's something you will never understand. That's something she could only explain to herself, her choices. Her reasons. Her mistakes. 

You're still building your bridge to meet her halfway, while she's still building walls to protect you from her. 

It's not that She's bad or something's wrong with her, she's not that kind of person that will hide behind an "it's not you, it's me." Because she's not a coward, she's not running away from you, it's the total opposite.. This is just not our time.

Remember when you said "Forever".

It was the same exact moment I knew we will never be together. 

I never thought that in order to find me, you will lose yourself. 

I don't want you to promise me the stars when you don't even see them. 

I want no stars. 

I need no forever. 

So don't promise me forever unless we're still holding hands in heaven. 

I wish I had all the happiness in the world, so I could wrap it all in a box and give it to you. Or how about more cheeks so I could inject them into yours. I know you love cheeks. 

I wish I had all the perfect ingredients, time and money to feed you your favorite food. Or how about I grow wings and take you for a tour. I know you would love to fly. 

Maybe I could talk to your soul, to tell you how important you are to me, and give you my eyes, so I could show you how I see your beautiful heart. 

Most of all, I wish I had a bigger heart so I could keep you inside of it and protect you from this world. 

I love you. 

Somedays she wakes up and feels like She has a bubble of love that She wants to give out to some people, She felt like screaming into their eyes saying I love you, you're such an amazing person, please take that bubble of love and keep it. Keep it yourself, it will grow more bubbles of love inside of you, so that you could give them out to other people you meet everyday. Spread those bubbles around. 

You might have haters because you're successful, but not only successful people have haters, assholes, liars, unkind and mean people have haters as well. So lower your ego, because not every successful person has to be an asshole.