Stages of Growth.

In your life you will go through a lot of stages in which you might surprise yourself, by your growth and choosing what’s the best for you.

In our twenties we meet a lot of temporary people, even though we know that they are here for a short while we choose to go along the way since its better to take the chance rather than asking what if.

sometimes you meet a person and they change your perspective on so many things in life, that’s not always a good thing, that person with his own personality could teach you a lot of stuff that you are yet to learn, like how to love yourself more, how to know your worth, to actually feel what you deserve, to achieve your dreams, and to learn how to say no to the people you love if they are asking you for something that doesn’t suit you, because “you” should always come first.

the thing is, even if this person is not the right one, they will be there for a reason, they crossed your path for a reason, a good one, trust me. still they are not the person you will spend your life with. maybe they’re just here to prepare you for your next step in life, for the next person you will meet, maybe you are not ready enough, to pour your love into another soul. 

you realise that you wasted your trust and time on the wrong person, and after a while you will remember the things you used to tell them and wonder how did you ever tell those sweetest stuff to someone that doesn’t deserve them. maybe you will laugh about it too, specially when you meet someone else, and wonder how did you love the wrong person that much? how did you open up to them that much? and now that new someone is in your life, and you’re giving them more and more of what you gave before and what you said before. 

I’m not saying that this new person is also the one, I’m just saying that you as a person, you’re capable of loving more and more everyday, you’re going to change and grow up, the people you meet during that stage will change your perspective and your point of view.

You will find out that some relationships takes you up, and boost your confidence in yourself, making you realise your worth, when you know you wasted time with someone less than what you deserve.

 I’ve seen that with my own eyes, I’ve lived that. I told someone before that I’m not sure how can I live knowing that there’s someone like them with that connection we have alive somewhere and we are not together, and yet I found someone else after, that made me wonder what kind of connection was I talking about before? 

I’ve known someone who told me that she’s not capable of falling in love again right after she broke up with her boyfriend, three months later, she met someone she was madly in love with. 

There’s no rule, there’s no limits. The most important thing is to know yourself and what you’re capable of, to know your worth and what you deserve. I’m sure that if you believe in something it will come along, you just need to learn how to let go of the wrong people so you could be able to welcome new ones. 

11/5/2016

To Seoul with love.

To the people I crossed path with, the ones I exchanged glances with, the ones that starred at me, not knowing who I am, but maybe for a second we shared a single thought.

To the guy I saw holding a book in the Subway, I wondered how do you sleep at night? Do you think of your future or about your tomorrow? Is there’s someone that keeps you up thinking of them?

To that driver that looked right at me, smiled and told me I’m beautiful, do you know how much you made a difference in my day? I wonder if you’re as happy as you made me. 

To the beautiful girl who offered to help me, as I was looking around lost. Did I seem scared?  I’m just not used to people’s kindness, I apologise. 

To the guy that stayed late talking to me, I’m sorry I didn’t ask for your name, but you told me something that I’ll remember forever. Whenever I do something crazy, I’ll always remember you, I’ll always remember your favourite phrase: “ It’s not crazy enough if the thought of it doesn’t scare you a little.”

To that girl I once shared a room with, she told me her name was sunshine, and that people find it awkward, I believe your name is the most beautiful name I’ve ever heard. May you always shine.

To that guy that asked me out, I’m sorry I let you down, maybe you will never understand, but sometimes you enjoy loneliness far away from home, you want nothing but yourself. 

To that girl that took me to places I wouldn’t have seen if I didn’t meet her, you will always be the favourite part of my trip.

I left my heart in that far away place from home, I’ll always carry those memories with me, I wish I stayed longer, and took more photos, I wish I took photos of every person I spoke to. 

I’m still learning, and this is something I will never forget again, to make enough memories with the people you meet everyday.

10/5/2016

Not every person you meet is similar to the ones you have met before.

they might remind you of someone from your previous life, but they cannot replace them. 

Maybe they might appear to be the person you are looking for, with the simplest acts they do, like how they choose the same books that person used to read, or how much sugar they want in their cup of tea. 

You need to understand that not a single person you meet could replace something or someone inside of you, They cannot make you feel safe like your mother used to, they cannot love you like any other person used to.

most of all they can’t replace a feeling you used to feel.

so stop comparing people, stop comparing their acts or their words and promises. no one is a copycat from someone else, no one is here to be compared to your previous past. 

even if they give more or say more, even if they love you more than anyone ever used to, you shouldn’t point out that to them, it won’t make them happy being compared to someone else.

No one likes being compared to anyone in this life. 

9/5/2016

Everyday you discover that there's more in life than the things you choose to let it get to you.

There's more than your favorite pencil that you cried over losing it in kindergarten, there's more than that guy who left you for someone else in High school, or that one subject in College that you challenged yourself not to fail, and you didn't fail. 

There's more than dating that guy who had it all in college, and crying over your first heartbreak.

Getting mad at your best friends because they don't understand, because there's more than being understood by someone other than yourself.

There's more in this life than giving and expecting in return, being disappointed everyday by people you "thought" you loved, being used for who you are and not understanding why, or being betrayed and lied to by people you "believed" they had good intentions for you. 

There's more than believing that you need to figure out your life now, whenever that "now" is for you. There's more than asking yourself "when" when am I going to be successful?

When am I going to settle down? 

Or asking yourself "what if", what if I didn't choose that Major? What if I chose to travel to work abroad? What if I didn't let that guy down? 

There's more in life than choosing not to eat that piece of cake just because you want to look like supermodels or that you starve yourself because you want to become a size zero. 

There's a lot of achievements that you go through everyday, sometimes you don't even notice them. This is how unimportant you "think" they are, although they are very important. 

Sometimes the simplest act like smiling back at your colleagues at work is considered an achievement, going back home to find a meal prepared for you, that love you get from your friends and family, talking to your Uber driver in a kind way because he's not less than you in anything, looking at yourself in the mirror and thinking how beautiful you are, forgiving yourself for all the mistakes you did to yourself, then later on forgiving others, learning how to let go and move on from the past, knowing the difference between what you want and what you need, knowing that even if you're not there yet, you will reach soon. thanking God everyday because he blessed you with so many blessings that you sometimes forget about. 

5/4/2016

I might get caught in the wrong road, I might end up where I don't want to be, I might think twice about taking the same road again, believing that somehow I might have a different end. I might as well take a different road, that I thought would be the right one to realize that I actually had drifted.

Even after all these years of taking different roads everyday, I never give up. I never take a single road believing that I could fail at the end, although my feet sometimes fail me, but deep inside I start the road with good intentions, that at the end I'll reach a good end. I might fall 10, 50 or 100 times but you have to know that every time I fall, I stand up stronger than any time before.

We all know that what comes around goes around, and we also know that كما تدين تدان ولوبعد حين

But I know that other's Karma is not my business. I've never felt great about sharing or congratulating the misfortunes of others. 

What I'm saying is have some class and some compassion. Remember it applies to everyone.

I’m sorry for the 9 missed calls and for all the unread messages. 
I’m not scared of reading them, I don’t want to. 
I don’t think anything you wrote there or anything you want to say will change how I look at you. 
How I see you now is something that I didn’t shape through our days, No. It’s something I shaped by the end, by how you turned out to be, and how you revealed the real person behind the mask you were wearing from the beginning of our time. 
It’s funny you know, how one person could change how you see them forever by one bitter act. 
It takes a second to like someone, and another for them to give you a reason to dislike them. 

18/3/2016